Confessions of a Certified Yoga Teacher

A yoga teacher might appear to his students, as someone to whom the art  of yoga comes naturally and  easily. But behind the composed exterior lies a tumultuous past. The relentless hours of dedicated practice and theory lessons, when put together with courage and direction, forms a yoga teacher. Just like any other person, even they have several insecurities and are working on these apprehensions, one day at a time to reach to their desired goals. A guru, a teacher, is complete in the image of desire for more knowledge. Stepping in a class on the pedestal made of thrones, a teacher too has some things to confess to his students. He wants to tell his tale of imperfection, his feeling of guilt and shame and just like his students discuss his everyday battle in and out of asanas.

Irregularity in the routine

Well, even though I understand that yoga is not a day’s work, still I have days, where I do not feel like practicing yoga. The discipline brings me to the mat, but I still want to go back and sleep for some more time. The urge to stay lazy and watch some more episodes of the game of thrones still rules me at times. And when I practice, I might not be as hard and precise as I am in the class. The control that I talk of in the class, on the body, I do miss out on that on some days.

Self doubt or self belief

Each time I tell in the class to believe in oneself, I am also reminding myself. I  do practice yoga principles in my daily  life but still there are times when I question myself, my skills and my  abilities.  While I explain deeper  methodologies with ease, I still might lack explanation to simpler things. Even I have to go to my guru to seek answers for things I do not understand.

The urge for carbs

Okay, the biggest myth and a confession as well, I have to tell you that I don’t have a gluten free diet. I do want to binge eat and taste the whole loads of carbs a burger or pizza has. And mind you, I do indulge in a couple of wine glasses at times. I know yoga teachers who are not even vegetarians at all. Yoga demands us to be ourselves and strive for betterment one day at a time, and with you, even I am learning to keep my urges in me.

The attachment to attachment

All the knowledge that I shareon the attitude of being detached from emotions and just observing other people, events and situations, I do at times fall in the loop of attachment. Even though I understand the theory of karma, the loop of good and bad deeds, the reason for disappointment, I still fall short of motivation to keep away from the negative thoughts.

In the midst of all the teaching and learning, it is important to remember that to err is human but to forgive is divine. So the next time a student sees a yoga teacher he should understand that s/he is a hard working person and is trying hard to cope up.